Nickelodeon has officially outdone themselves with the invention of 90's are All That. This means that every night from the hours of 11:00 pm to 3:00 am the Teen Nick channel plays TV shows from the 90's. Right now they are rotating through All That, Kenan and Kel, Clarrissa Explains It All, and Doug. This is not going to be a good thing for my sleep schedule but I could not be anymore excited.
Some people "spring clean", which naturally happens in the spring. I, on the other hand, did some extreme "spring cleaning" in the month of July. I have cleaned out every drawer, closet, and cranny in my room. I was talking to a friend recently about ways to deal with stress. I am trying to convince him to quit smoking and he said, "Sure, now just tell me a better way to deal with my stress." I piped up all ready to come out with my great ideas. After a few second of thought I realized my habits are not as healthy as I thought. When I get in a pickle, I eat and use a little "retail therapy". The one healthy form of stress relief I can claim is cleaning. Every time Alex has ever gone on a trip where we were out of communication I have gotten on a cleaning frenzy. Anything that can be cleaned and sorted is in danger. After failing a Calculus class this summer, I began to clean. I have cleaned and cleaned and cleaned. I even cleaned out my car. I still need to clean out from under my bed and wash dishes from school. I am trying to pace myself these days because I am scared I will run out of things to clean. Then what will I do?
Tonight I wrote a lesson for Girl's Day at my church. I wasn't sure what direction this talk was going to take and it still needs some twirking. My talk was on relationships. Now, it may seem that I have the relationship business down what with my being in a successful relationship for five years and being engaged. However, sometimes I feel like I struggle with relationships. I think one of my spiritual gifts is the gift of mediation. I am usually very good at mediating between two people allowing them to see things from another side and reconcile differences. When the shoe is on my foot, I find it harder to settle things. I feel like I have lost so many people in my life for whatever reason. The biggest thing I struggle with where relationships are concerned is wondering how it can be possible to go from talking to someone every day to not at all. The best explanation I have found for this is a quote from a television show that I don't even like but credit for this quote. "Some people are meant to be in your life forever where as some people should only make an appearance." I see the truth in this. God sends us people when we need them. We are not all meant to be in the same place forever. Everyone has a purpose, God's purpose. We move where he sends us. Though the pain still surfaces every time I see someone I used to be close to and no longer am, I try to be grateful for the times we had and the good things they brought to my life.
This whole business of being engaged has been too much fun. I never get tired of re-telling the story and people snatching my hand to see my ring. Thats the way it should be. Alex and I are proud of our relationship and all that it has come through to be where it is today. We did not always have it easy. We fought and scratched our way to where we are today but we sure did have a blast doing it. Even the worst of times are now things we can look back on and laugh together. It has been fun to slip back into the giddy silly in love phase. I could also never get tired of nights like tonight. Sitting and having good talks with each other and our families, cuddling up and watching movies, late night snacks and chasing each other around the yard wresting and tickling, ending in sweet long kisses. I have found my match. Tonight as I lay on his chest listening to his heartbeat, I was so grateful that he is alive.
The day is fast approaching when I will move into my first apartment. I feel kind of spoiled. Your first apartment is supposed to be a hole in the wall barely bearable to live in. However, me and Caitlin should not be blamed for being thrifty and diligent searchers. My apartment is currently being redone from top to bottom. New walls, new cabinets, new appliances, the whole nine yards. I cannot contain my excitement for finally having my own room at school. I have paid my dues living in the dorm. This excitement has led me to spend too much money on stuff for this apartment. I am making a contract with myself that I am to buy nothing else this summer unless it is food. Of course, I have had to make some interesting purchases like a donut maker as well as a waffle maker. This is not just any waffle maker, this is one of those pour your dough in and flip it over waffle makers. There is a difference people.
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